Away.

Some times living thousands of miles away from your finance is hard. Some days it's not bad, some days it feels like your heart is being ripped out. This week is one of those weeks.
In the last two weeks J has graduated from 2nd Year, had a grad party, gotten a new job, gone to I baby dedication. And I have missed it al. It hardest to know that he's there with his friends having a blast and knowing that you could be there too, if only you didn't live 2,200 miles across the country.

This has definitely been a few weeks of choosing to love, even when you don't feel it. I would love nothing more than to be more than a name at these events and parties. But right now that isn't possible. And quite frankly- it sucks!
I just keep reminding myself that in 145 days- none of this will matter.