Ever get that sinking feeling when you miss something or someone? It feels like your heart is so heavy that its going to fall through into your stomach. And your chest gets tight, so that you can barely breath, blinking back tears you silently say to yourself-just a little longer.
Just a little longer until I feel like I'm where I'm suppose to be. Just a little longer until everything I wanted falls into place. Just a little longer.
The Bible tells us that Love suffers long, and is kind. Suffers long? That means it is patient right? Love. Is patient. Even when it doesn't feel like it.
Jeffrey genuinely loved it when I told him I was blogging last night. He makes me laugh from the deepest parts of me. And he suffers long. One of my favorite "Jeffreyisms" is that love is not an emotion.
What?! Not an emotion? But then I think about it. Love is truly something that you have to work at. So if love isn't an emotion, if you have to work at it, and if love is patient, then we have to work at being patient.
Everyone asks, "how does your boyfriend feel about you moving to DC?" I always answer~he doesn't care, he just wants me to do what makes me happy. But the truth is that God has given Jeffrey an innate ability to understand that love is long suffering.
So when I feel that deep down heavy feeling, I just call him and he makes me laugh, then it's gone. And when I can't handle it anymore, sometimes I just call and cry and he listens and calls me a "trooper". Then I remember that I'm not the only one who is having a hard time...and I ask God to help me learn to love and suffer long.
LOVE SUFFERS LONG AND IS KIND. 1Corinthians 13:8
Yes, I got that sinking feeling of missing someone. I got that last night. I was crying pretty bad because it was my little cousin's birthday. He turned three. He's very, very special to me and I just miss him so much. I texted his grandma to tell him happy birthday and that I love and miss him. He ACTUALLY said he loves me and misses me too. I absolutely lost it and broke down in tears. I could feel the pain and everything that you mentioned.
ReplyDeleteAnyway, you are SO blessed to have Jeffrey. He has always been by your side and supports you. He's a keeper!
Love this blog!
Jeffrey is right, Twinsie. Love is a verb and an action verb at that. Loving your blog. Take care and watch for a box from the adopted 'rents.
ReplyDeleteLove, Cathy