Monday, September 27

my favorite sweater

Is black. and i bought it on sale. and it is glorious! I was very excited to get to finally wear it Tonight...
As i put it on i was thinking about all the places it had been.
It's amazing how one piece of clothing, or smell, or taste can take you back to so many Places.

I love this sweater, mainly because it gives me that cozy-everything-is-now-perfect feeling.
That feeling is just needed sometimes. and some days it says gee hann-you look awesome.

Some people in our lives make us feel that way too. my uncle jim is one of them. he has this Hug that just
Makes me wanna melt. and he always knows exactly what to say.

Fall is my favorite time of year, mainly because i get to dig out my favorite sweater. this year Is a new one.
And this season in my life, my sweater will probably get a lot of use. because there are just Some days,that
Are favorite sweater days.

Sunday, September 12

Pruning...

Today is a lovely Sunday in the Southern Illinois. And to combat my extreme bordom, I decided to prune some of our bushes.

Pruning is something that none of us like to do, because for a while, it makes things look sad and neglected. But really pruning is more of a way to clear out the dead stuff so you can grow better.

I'm learning that this is what God is doing to me... I sat on the front row at church this morning and I couldn't hardly hold back my tears. But at the same time, while I was sad, I was also very excited because Jeffrey was at his first of many services at Bethel. When I got home, he called me-the excitement in his voice about talking about the service and what God is going to do, makes me more excited than sad!

I love that God loves me so much that He takes the time to prune me, branch by branch, limb by limb until I'm prefectly what He wants me to be.

Friday, September 10

Rainy Days and Goodbyes

I love rain. I truly do. It's one of those favorite thing. You know, the list of things in you head that makes you feel all happy inside. One of mine is rain, and fall. So with fall quickly approaching I am overly excited to be back home. Granted I'm sure DC is beau-tiful in the fall. Especially Georgetown and those awesome trees around Jefferson. But this year I'm glad to be home.

Fall is always the symbol of change. Leaves start to lose that green color, the grass starts to get crunchy and the smell of the air itself changes. Life itself seems to take on a new season as we start new things like classes and jobs. Gone are the carefree "dog days" of summer. Fall always makes me feel smarter and more alive.

This fall one of my favorite things has left. He moved. Yesterday. To California.
Yep. Sure did. So in my head the list of things that makes me happy has started to change like those maple leaves. No longer is-the movies with J on my list. Now it's-hearing J describe how God has prompted him to give up moves.
Talking to J in the car has been replaced with J talking to me while driving in the car.

Right now he's in Colorado and he called me to say how close the clouds felt and looked. Then he said- "I hope we can come back here because things are cool, but I know they'd be better with you, because things are always better with the one you love."

Wednesday, May 5

Pomp

On Saturday May 8th, I will walk across the stage at MacMurray College and fulfill my parents dream for me, or at least one of them, I will be a college graduate.
I'm not really sure what to think about it. I don't really feel any smarter, brighter, or wealthier.
I still feel like me. In fact, I think moving to DC had the most impact on helping me "grow up".
But even then, I don't feel anymore grown up than I did a few years ago.
Sure, I've checked a few more things off my To Do: list but there are lots of things left.
Like-find a job I love. Not so sure where it is-but it's out there. And I'm not so sure it's in interpreting, but I know that is some how an important part of it.
Or-Become a better packer. I've gotten a ton better at this since I've been in college.
Take a Road Trip-over 12 hours, no stopping to sleep.

I guess I might feel more grown up when I walk across the stage, but I doubt it.
I'm not really sure a piece of paper and a cap and gown make you a grown up.
I think it might be how you handle everyday situations.
Or when you're responsible for your own place to live, or when you get married.
Who knows...Not me.
All I know is who holds my future, and for now, well...forever, that's enough for me!